Authentic Abundance: I Thought I Was Lazy, But I Was Just Out of Alignment

The Strawberry Full Moon in Sagittarius just passed, and I’ve felt its energy lingering in the best way for four days.

Sagittarius is the seeker, the philosopher, the one who asks: What’s true for me? What am I being called to expand into?

This full moon had me slowing down and reflecting on how far I’ve come and how many old stories I’ve released.

One of the loudest stories I’ve been rewriting lately? The idea that I’m low energy and low execution.

For a long time, I truly believed it.

Other people moved through life so quickly, always producing, planning, achieving. Meanwhile, I often needed to pause. To feel. To rest. I labeled that rhythm as laziness.

But that wasn’t the truth.

The truth is, I was misaligned.

I was surrounded by draining dynamics. My boundaries were thin, and I was, at times, in environments that didn’t reflect my values or gifts. Of course I felt tired. I was slowly leaking energy.

Realignment changed everything

The shift came when I started saying yes to what genuinely lit me up and no to what didn’t. I stopped trying to be like everyone else and began trusting the rhythm of my own energy.

And once I got into alignment?

My energy soared.

I started writing more, building more, doing more, but none of it felt like forcing or pushing. It felt like flow.

A strengths-based lens

Years ago, I took the CliftonStrengths assessment (formerly StrengthsFinder). It’s a tool that helps you understand how you’re naturally designed to contribute across four domains:

• Strategic Thinking — how you process and analyze

• Influence — how you move ideas and people

• Relationship Building — how you connect and sustain bonds

• Execution — how you get things done

  
  

Here’s how my top 10 strengths show up:

• Strategic (Strategic Thinking)

• Maximizer (Influence)

• Adaptability (Relationship Building)

• Ideation (Strategic Thinking)

• Relator (Relationship Building)

• Activator (Influence)

• Positivity (Relationship Building)

• Connectedness (Relationship Building)

• Self-Assurance (Influence)

• Arranger (Execution)

Just one of my top ten falls under Execution, and for a long time, I believed that meant I wasn't a “doer.” But now I understand: when I work in alignment, I do execute. Not through force, but through flow.

I sometimes wonder what my results would be if I took the test again today. Because the more aligned I become, the more “productive” I feel, even without trying. It’s not about pushing harder. It’s about letting my true gifts lead.

An invitation to go deeper with your authentic abundance

If you’ve ever labeled yourself as lazy, inconsistent, or unproductive, I invite you to pause.

What if those words were never true?What if your strengths just haven’t had the right soil yet?

And what if authentic abundance has nothing to do with hustle and everything to do with trusting the natural way your energy wants to move?

Journal Prompts to Explore:

• Where in your life do you feel most energized and alive? What are you usually doing in those moments?

• What parts of yourself have you labeled as "lazy" or "not enough"? What might those parts be trying to tell you?

• When was the last time something felt effortless because it was aligned?

• Which of your strengths or gifts have been overlooked or undervalued, by yourself or others?

• What would your life look like if you fully trusted your natural rhythm?

  
  

Want to discover your own strengths?

You can take the CliftonStrengths assessment online. The basic version is $24.99 and reveals your top 5 strengths — which is a powerful start. If you want to see all 34 strengths in order, you can upgrade later for deeper insight. I found the full version incredibly helpful in understanding both my natural genius and the areas where I once felt stuck.

If you’ve taken CliftonStrengths, or if you’re inspired to try it now, I’d love to hear what your top strengths are. Feel free to comment or message me. There’s so much magic in knowing and naming your gifts.

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